My first journal entry...wow. This is what happens when I get bored. I kept telling myself I wasn't going to make any journal entries, and yet, here I am...making a journal entry. I wouldn't be if the website I wanted to go to wasn't being a bitch. I've been trying to get there for nearly an hour, but the website is down right now.

I still have no idea why I am doing this.

On another note, I really want to improve my writing skills. I feel like my skills have been worsening, for some reason. Lack of inspiration, maybe? I have at least two fanfictions I need to update, and I'm sure I haven't updated one of them in at least a year. It is possible my feelings about my decline in writing quality has contributed to my major slacking. My fans probably hate me by now. I just know I will be beaten senseless the next time I update the fanfiction I haven't updated in nearly a year. Either that, or my readers will be non-existant.

I've also been slacking on scholarships. It is even worse than the fanfictions. Who wants to read 1,000 pages of a book just to write 800-1500 words for an essay? Well, if you throw $10,000 in scholarship money into the equation...then it's a completely different story. I'm such a slow reader, though. And it's confusing. Maybe I'll just take my time reading it and then enter an essay next year.

WHY AM I DOING THIS!?

I swear I'm insane and it's late and I'm tired. I'm done with this.